I seem to have loved you in numberless forms, numberless times…

In life after life, in age after age, forever,
My spellbound heart has made and remade the necklace of songs,

That you take as a gift, to wear around your neck in many forms

I want to write of happy things,

joyous ocassions,

of which there sure are aplenty…

yet, for some some reason,

perhaps a long standing conditioning,

I keep getting dragged back,

back into the mud,

into the quicksand,

a murky swamp…

Why oh why?

why is there so much joy,

in the misery an sorrow?

in the chewing bubble gum,

to solve a maths equation.

Why oh why,

do I,

am I,

do I,

with little to carry around,

worry that I indeed have little,

i have only this trouble,

this trouble or that…

I am lacking,

not in joy,

yes in joy,

for I am lacking,

in troubles…

Hold on tight,
To everything,
Just hold on tight,
for you don’t know when,
when it might all go,
when it might all disappear.

Hold on tight,
for one day,
it will go,
it will disappear.

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And I walk down this path,
Paved with gold and silver,
And the colours of the rainbow,
Paved with nothing but good,
No, the best… of intentions…

Right into the heart of hell.

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For I once did fall,
For an angel of darkness and light,
As my knees touched rock bottom,
With the  heavy burden of this love I felt..

I realise that she does not love me,
For what she felt me for me,
There is not a word,
Not a phrase, a paragraph or a book.

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The circle of life,
starting at zero,
and all the way to infinity,
to find that you are merely back,
right at the beginning,
at zero.

For I am nothing,
Yet, I find that I am,
I am everything.

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As I draw in this breath
I think to myself
By my next breath,
I shall love you
Not any more
For ever more.

As I see the sun set,
I think to myself
By the time the sun rises,
I shall love you,
Not any more
For ever more.

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